Maybe I’ve pushed myself too far this week that my body just crashed out and gave me a flu with the most unbearable headaches and muscle pain (i was almost convinced it was covid but thankfully it was just a common flu).
Hadnt been able to get myself up to go to “work” for 2 days cos my whole body feels like a dead body going through Riggor Mortis. And right now I feel much more alive, still a little low on energy but enough for me to write this down, so while I still have the time and energy I might as well work on this website I made out of cardboard, glue and pure delusion.
Quote of the day
October 6, 2025
"The best revenge is to not be like your enemy"
-Marcus Aurelius
Never Back Down Never What?
October 7, 2025
If youre being petty, i too, can be as petty as you. That's what i told myself but i chose micro-dose of pettiness instead
Today i chose peace instead of going full on petty bitch mode. I choose to become a gray rock and pretend she is just a figment of everyone's collective imagination
A figment of imagination that is cultivated from the very essence of someone with the "kurang kasih sayang" archetype. Because the best reaction to give towards an azzhole is no reaction at all.
Im not letting someone like that ruin my day, especially when there are people around me who are more peaceful to be around.
...but a little bit of pranking would be funny tho lmao
Rude Staff Situation...
October 6, 2025
Bro wtf is up with that staff. It's so weird that she acts like she owns the whole office?? She’s so petty and for what? I cannot understand what's her deal, is she going through menopause?
Is she allergic to other people having fun or at least interact? Because everytime we talk or even slightly laugh she would turned her youtube’s volume so loud to shut us the fuck up??? What happened to communicating? Even if we are being noisy at least LET US KNOW, instead she opted for petty moves like jabbing insults to the interns and playing loud volume from her phone and youtube on her laptop. What a difficult person to deal with.
Ive even tried being nice and respectful to her and yet she is still going on power trips and insulting and bullying us like we did her wrong.
Instead of complaining to us about how much of a waste of time we are for not doing any work, why not complain directly to the director? Ask them to give us more shit to do instead of shitting on us and making us feel small and shitty all the time.
Getting Back on This Project
October 5, 2025
After what seemingly like months of abandoning this little project of mine, i finally mustered up the courage to torture myself of making my own website.
Besides the occasional drawing, reading and wasting my money on Chiikawa merch, I've never felt so hyper focused on learning how to code my own website.
I do have to admit that I have shamefully used some assistance from AI to help with some code optimisations and some codes generated to make it work. Maybe this falls into some kinda gray area but idk. The whole ethics behind AI is very complicated. Kinda hypocritical of me tbh, I strongly disagree with the use of AI in art and yet here i am using it to help me build my website.
Maybe as time goes by I will rely on it less, my skills are still as blunt as a solidified piece of shite. There are still a lot of things for me to learn, especially when it comes to java script.
Quote of the day
October 4, 2025
"To robbery, slaughter, plunder, they give the lying name of empire; the make a desert [lit. solitude] and call it peace"